Cha-cha-changes!

So I've always been one to kinda look down my nose at the people who resist change. You know, the people who really can't handle it if ANYONE moves their cheese EVEN.ONE.MILLIMETER. The people who like things the way they've always been. There's no possible way something different could be good in any way.
Yeah. Those kind of people.
I thought they were so unsophisticated and terribly lame and just plain not-a-part-of-the-solution-thus-part-of-the-problem folks.
I'd like to think that I really embrace change. I like when things get shaken up. (Um, remember how we went to live in Poland wait, I mean Ireland, wait I mean WE GOT SENT BACK HOME all in a span of 8 months while I WAS PREGNANT.
So, no, I usually think I can handle change.
But now that I am a mother, maybe things have, um, changed.

Tee-hee. See how funny that is?

If you've been reading along during the past nine months, you may have picked up on my growing anxiety over my kiddo growing up. I've already hyperventilated about who Zane's going to marry (no one's good enough, FYI) and whether or not she'll stay home with their children. Yeah, crazy, I know.

But right now there seem to be a ton of changes--mostly minor ones--and I feel more off-balance than normal.

We're getting a new minister at our church, for starters. So, what? We're Methodists. That happens. Not a big deal. And we've taken a fancy to the associate rev anyway, so why does this bother me? I dunno. But consider my cheese "moved".

Then there's Willowtree. I can't help but feel like we broke up a coupla months ago. And then he writes some post the other day about not blogging any more.

I know, blogging seems soooOOOO 2007 and all, but seriously? These are totally my friends and they can't just, STOP. But I checked back today and there was more of The Dingo, so I can stop panicking. But I still feel like we broke up. I heart you, WT. Hope to be more back in the game soon.

Then the Mamas of Drama are all shook up with Jenny and Min moving over to Good Mom/Bad Mom. The new blog is great and all but it really rocked my world with Jenny's announcement that she was leaving. Serious anxiety for a moment. Seriously.

But then I step back and think:

"Whoah!" This is all minor stuff here, kiddo! Wait to get all worked up about some really big stuff!!

Why am I spazzing out about a few little changes?

Probably because the BIGGEST CHANGE OF THEM ALL was that Zane TOOK A STEP from the coffee table to the couch last night.

???

!!!

?!?!?!?!?

While I'm sure we're still months from walking, this was EARTH-SHATTERING as far as messin' with my chi. Harshing my mellow. Bumming me out. Moving that cheese. Getting me outta my comfort zone.

Not only is my no-longer-a-baby-but-totally-a-big-boy getting ready to WALK, he's getting ready to be ONE YEAR old. Okay, okay, so I have almost three months until then, but. . .

And while I am not resisting all this change, per se, I am more shaken up by it than I anticipated. I am having to work really hard to be my easygoing "change ain't no big thang" kind of self.

So my mantra today really is "change ain't no big thang." I like it.

Or at least I can keep telling myself that.

This is the Zaner playing an endless game of "open/close" with the bathroom door with his crazy post-nap Redd Skelton hairdo.