Wednesday, June 18, 2008

Losing my mind?

Yes, quite possibly.
Because I actually enjoyed being in a room with nine, count 'em, NINE often screaming, pushing, not-quite-sharing, tugging, crying one-to-two-year-olds.
Yeah, I know, I have no clue what's going on.
Anyway. . . such goes the saga of Vacation Bible School. I swore this morning on no sleep and not enough coffee to kill an elephant, oh I mean, "function" that I was not going back there but back I went.
And I actually enjoyed myself. Getting out of the house and out of my little routine has been very good for me. Of course, I might just fall asleep standing up, my back is killing me, and I think my arms might fall off from holding babies, but. . .whatevs. It was fun.

I mentioned yesterday that I had a serious parting identity crisis earlier in the week. You ever have that? You just start along some path and then realize: "Hey, this doesn't feel right. What do I really want to be doing as a parent? What is right for my family?"
Anyway. . . that's where I found myself on Monday.
After hearing how I need to let Z "cry it out" about eleventy million times I was almost starting to feel like that was my only option. Err. No. And how he needed to be in Mother's Day Out in the Fall. He's only one! How much is "craft time" really going to benefit him when all he wants to do is eat the paper and crayons???
So I had to do some soul-searching (and quickly, it's not like Z gives me a lot of time to, ahem, ponder, much of anything. . . ) and I got the DH on the phone and he was able to chat a few minutes about stuff so that was helpful.
Basically he summed up a lot of the frustration/confusion/muddledness I've been feeling in a tidy, concise way: We in transition with Z right now.
He's gone from a baby to a toddler overnight, and I am just catching up. And that's a whole different ballgame. I actually really do need to figure out how we're going to deal with the day to day discipline. Aside from keeping him from hurting himself with his madcap monkey-boy antics, we've also got to establish some boundaries, rules, etc.
And dammit this kid DID NOT come with an instruction manual!!!
So we're reading some books and doing some thinking and trying to figure out this next big step in parenting that totally snuck up on us.
Toddlerhood. Ain't it great?!
I think I'm definitely losing my mind.
Oh, and I would looooove to add a picture to this post but since I am reorganizing my digital packratness it's taking me ages to get the latest pics off the camera. Sigh. This will all get into a routine soon. . .

6 comments:

Aimee said...

OMG- Sabrina, that is so true. It really has snuck (sneaked?!?!) up on us. How can they be 1 already. I am feeling more and more grateful that B can't walk yet. I still have a few more weeks (days) before things get really crazy! HUGS!

Doreen said...

You know, everyone has something to say about how you should parent your child. What it comes down to is what you feel comfortable with. I personally don't think it's a great thing for kids to be dropped off screaming, so I don't do it. We also don't do early preschool or anything. My oldest did it the year before Kindergarten. Bryan didn't, he did gymnastics a couple of days a week instead (only this past year, he starts K in August). As of right now, I have no plans to send Kaylee to preschool or anything, I don't think she's ready. I'll probably just have her do something the year before K, as well (either preschool or some sport or something). I'm one of those people who believe kids need to be with their moms (if at all possible), I don't feel forcing separation is productive. That's just me, though. :p

Anonymous said...

The first time someone told me walking meant discipline I didn't get it. It took about three milliseconds to figure it out. You'll get the hang of it - quickly.

Rachel said...

Thanks for your note Sabrina! I am right there with you on pretty much everything. We did not have to even tell Sophie no until she was two (seriously). Luke...we have no clue---and he is almost 2 1/2 !!! Don't let other people tell you what you should do or should/shouldn't feel---that is just annoying and RUDE. You are doing a great job from what I can see! Cute family!

Lauren said...

It's so easy for others to say "let him cry it out" when it's not their child. I just say "mm-hmm" and do what I want anyway. Have you checked out "The Happiest Toddler on the Block"? One of my mommy friends with a VERY challenging toddler swears by it.

Anonymous said...

Somehow you get through it.

I actually had some good advice given to me the other day - so I will pass it along...

If you don't want your child doing something at the age of 5, then don't let them do it at the age of 1.

and here I am back at babyhood - totally having forgotten how completely consuming and overwhelming it can be.